The more I lean into God, the more I realize the wickedness of my heart. That’s not me lamenting in shame, rather it’s a simple reality that I am thankful for as it leads me to repentance. I am not…
Archives for November 2009
Day 57
I am still quite sad and a little overwhelmed by the emotions I am feeling. A lot of these emotions are bringing my fears to the light. If I am afraid of anything it’s losing this life or losing someone…
Day 56
Happy Thanksgiving. I am so wonderfully thankful for this short fragile life. It’s been a hard few days and my emotions are raw but I am going to allow myself to feel them because they make me remember how precious…
Day 55
went to bed early last night so I had planned to post some other thoughts that I will share for another time. Today I want to post something that happened today. I was SO excited today to realize that I…
Day 54
I am feeling quite convicted about how I live my daily life – or rather how I don’t live it. From the world’s stand point I would probably be considered a good person. I care about my family, I work…
Day 52 & 53
Early in my journey towards spiritual, physical and emotional wholeness I often wondered who I was. Literally I felt lost. I was Brian’s wife, the girls mom, the MOPS Coordinator. I felt as if my existence meant little and that…
Day 51
I saw a movie on Friday that I’ve been waiting to see for AGES. The movie itself was great but as much as I enjoyed it all I could think about the entire movie was a line said toward the…
Day 50
Recently I have felt a lot of release from fear, shame and anxiety. I think the anxiety is one of the things I haven’t touched on. I can almost remember when it started. Raina was about 7 weeks ago and…
Day 49
The word clearly says there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1 NIV). We’ve all broken the moral law of God. We are all incapable of keeping it. But Jesus has set me free…
Day 48
Boundaries are very hard for me. I either have none at all or I throw up walls. Sigh. Neither is healthy. I really have to work EVERY single day at reaching out to people, even the important people in my…
Day 45 & 46
Have you ever felt hopeless? I have. It was completely consuming, overwhelming and exhausting. I could see myself or someone else or even a relationship falling apart or imploding and there was literally nothing I could do to salvage the…
Day 42
It’s amazing how God is using my young children to minister His truths to me. My 4 year old Raina has had a limited vocabulary due to speech issues related to Pervasive Development. Since June her speech has literally exploded…